Find out I did, but I pretended I did not know.

Guess what? I think she wanted to bring my attention to her actions. You see, with FaceBook, if I did not view her profile, I would not have known that she has uploaded our photos online since I would not receive notification for her old actions.

Anyway, a couple of days ago, she DELETED her entire album and reuploaded all the photos, tagged everyone in the photos except me and she captioned the photos: VVIP dropped by!

Since she is in my friend’s list, this time, I did get a notification in my mini feed so I saw it. I wonder what she was trying to do. I know that she wanted to bring my attention to her “new” photo album and she surely knows that I would be pissed off, yet she did that.

Obviously, my trust for her has gone down the drain.

Copyright: Blig Blogging – All Rights Reserved

I still recall her full name even though it has been years since we went to school together. I am good with names and faces. My theory is that the less years one clocked in school, college or university, the better one could recall all the names of students and teachers. Maybe there just aren’t that many names and faces to remember.

So I chanced upon her and it is kind of odd that although I knew that she has been living and working in Ipoh since graduating from university up north, this was only the second time that I bumped into her, and at the same mall too. I believed that she also saw and recognised me that first time, yet we both did not acknowledge each other. Well, it was kind of awkward since she was on a date back then, years ago.

It is all the more strange as she rode on the same school bus as I did for at least two years and in fact, she lived rather near my house too.

I found a lot of my old school mates on Facebook but I don’t see this person on it. Most of my school friends are already married with children, or at various stages of pregnancies.

It has been years since I met anyone from school face to face and had a real conversation. What I know is that we have lost the camaraderie and that we are no longer the same. At least, I am no longer the same. I wish that sometimes, I could still be with them and feel like I did back then when we were still in school but I find that it is no longer possible. My current friends are all those whom I met since leaving school and in fact, there are a handful of them whom I met online, and who are very good to me.

The saying that “make new friends and keep the old” comes to mind but seriously it is very hard to follow through. For one, our interests have diverged so far apart. Being with my old school mates will only trash my self-esteem because I cannot measure up to them in society. I may earn more than some of them but I don’t even own a power suit because I work in my pajamas. I don’t wear make up or high heels, heck, I don’t even own a handbag.

I know this may not be a big deal to some people, but being less educated than some of the girls who performed worse than I did back in school is, and always will be, a chip on my shoulder.

Copyright: Blig Blogging – All Rights Reserved